Thought For Today: Thankful For Divorce

After I received my divorce, I was in various states of confusion. As a minister, I thought God had taken his hands off of me and that I somehow misread everything. As a wife, I thought I'd failed. As a woman, I questioned what could I have done differently? I lost inspiration. I broke connections. I trusted no one (not even myself). I had a difficult time with the transition from marriage to singleness. I needed God and, at the same time, I didn't want to need God because I thought God no longer heard me. Now that the dust has settled, and I have been divorced for the better part of a year, I'm finding out the allegorical text, Footprints in the sand (Mary Stevenson, 1936) has entirely new meaning. It's the first day I received new inspiration, like the past, when I first received the call to ministry. Except, I'm different, I process things through an entirely different lens. I'm starting over, not from the beginning, more like from a different foundation. If that makes any sense. I'm almost in a better position than where I was before. I'm starting over from a position of power and strength; but also, from a position of vulnerability and brokenness. These place me in an enviable position of now knowing how to pray more honest prayers that come from a place that didn't exist before. Now I'm thankful to my God who allowed me to make a mistake; but when I didn't know what I was getting myself into, I am thankful to my God who executed swift and fair judgement to pull me out of a bad situation. In hindsight, I moved too quickly. I am grateful that my divorce has taught me how to "Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart:" I will tell you the same thing that Psalms 27:14 told me "Wait, I say, on the Lord!"

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